the truth ;_;

days by days, and now i realise that the truth are sometimes better left unsaid and unspoken..cause now i can feel it that we are not like how we were, and i realise that you are trying to get away from me, trying to avoid me..but i keep on remind my self that you are not doing such things, cause you had promise that..sometimes, i think you said those things only to comfort me and only to make me feel better..YES!! you did a good job..but somehows, you only make me more sad as you don't fulfill your promise (+_+)

what should i do??

so much things in my mind, so much miserable my heart feels..i got so confuse and i got so hurt..and lately, all i ever wanted to do is to tell you the truth..but, i'm afraid you might avoid me..and i'm afraid i might lost you.. *sigh* how much i want life is so easy..cause feeling like this is so horrible, and i just can't take it any longer..and i need courage to tell you everything, to tell you what i feel (;_;)

your request..

yes i wanted to tell you that i like you..but, it might be too late, cause i guess you are no longer available :') so whats the point if i tell you now??i wont tell you cause i don't want to lose you, even as a friend..now we can just be friend cause you already have someone for your life, even if its so hard for me to accept you as my friend..there is nothing i can do, i'll just keep my secrets to myself -_-

losing hope..

every single minute, every single hour and every single day; nothing left for me..i'm losing my hope..and so sad that i really can't take this..and i can't stand this..there is nothing that can make me avoid thinking of all this stuff, and having an over active brain are not so good..i really need a miracle to make me forget everything T_T

and this is life (-_-)

life is so unfair to me..all i need is a gut to face this hard life..i'm so hopeless that everything seems so hard and difficult to me..i've lost my strength and hope since you said all that things -_- if only there is a skip button in life, life would be not so hard and i wouldn't feel so terrible as what i feel now T_T

welcome back to me :)

hello, i'm back..i got so much story to share, but i prefer to keep it as secrets :)..everything seems so dull to me, and being in love is so much hurting me -_- cause i can't let him know and i can't let it out..its look like that i'm so much in a big trouble of being apart of this..and i don't know what to do and what should i do -.-