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21st May 2013

during AV family gathering :)

Assalamualaikum.. hello~ finished studying and now i am jobless! 

oh yeah, i'm back! been how many months (or years?) not updating this blog heheh 

ok thats all..

friends!

a friend, that i miss..that i can't bear without..

a friend i supposed that i can trust..

a friend is so unpredictable

a friend that we try to make he/her satisfied of our self

a friend that can understand us

a friend that happy to see us happy

a friend that can accept us as how we are

a friend that can/at least try to avoid things that can hurt our feelings

true friends, are sometime hard to find :')

p/s: listen up this song --> aura dione ft. rock mafia - friends

when i feel i'm recovered, but i'm not

my chest...hurts...

it hurts so bad...

just the mere mention of that name...makes me feel like i've been stabbed.

a dream, an imagination world

if only we could have...lived in a kinder world.

a world without anxieties...without fear.

a world where nobody would get hurt...or hurt themselves.

a world where only right things are being done...

if only there was a shortcut...for us to reach out to...a kind, compassionate world that we all long for...

'you've made a mistake....'
'you're an idiot'....it's easy to say such irresponsible things...only because it's someone else's life you're talking about.

is it possible...??

if only we could...live our lives without taking a single wrong turn...

but.....

there is no such thing.

sometimes we fail...sometimes we trip....

sometimes we get lost...sometimes we make mistakes....

we just have...to keep going...

...to keep walking one step at a time...on our own two feet.

even if we might get bruised along the way...

we'll all reach our destination someday...a place where someone will be waiting for us....

that i pray for....

feelings

my heart's so confused...it hurts so much..i felt it again...that feeling of leaving something behind...

to have our 'memories' change...

that loneliness and despair...like part of your body's...been torn off...

even if it's an unforgettable event...it doesn't remain vivid in our memories...

no matter how we try to mend it...or how we swear to hold on to it....time will mercilessly pass us by...

it's so sad...that sadness that eats into you...

i can't...i can't stop it...i can't stop it anymore...

my wish........

i just...don't want......

had already become a 'memory'

a wish...

my chest hurts...it hurts so badly...
like it's about to be ripped apart..

is it because this irrational wish....has mad me so afraid??
because i know....that some wishes....may just never come true...??

but even if this is so....i still wish for it!!
i still wish for it!!

one, two, three!!

HAHAHAHA!! lol (????) oh my......am i stress?? huhu..chocolate~ i want you now..come to mama please~ :p heh-heh-heh...

Mr. Kitto Katsu, please give me chocolate...please~ you, you, you can make me hyper :D

hohoho now you are in my mind~ lets fly, fly, fly high!! heyho~

*random-me*

"you and you"

you...i thank you for all that moments, i thank you for making me thinking of my future, i thank you for making me thinking of my life..and for making me to recall my life memories..you, make me clear enough of what i want..you, make me give up of this one thing..and sure it's better that way because......just because~~ yeah i know after all you done, now you gone..yes i shouldn't regret of what happened, but....how can i handle this?? how?? you, you just don't know...well, i guess it just my mistake after all :')

*better life will comes* insyaAllah