birthday surprises :)

oh no!!!! cannot be, cannot be...that feeling come again..and its because of you, chocolate..but, that make me smile and a kind of happy..thanks to you :)) and damn sure i miss you, haha and yeah i know you miss me too right?? if not, why you make that sweet conversation with me?? :) heeee....big smile on my face at the time you knock my phone :)

thanks to them; LK-1402's mate, izzati aqilah, ria and all my friend for all the greetings, present and surprise birthday song :)) and and this is the best birthday gift from you guys but not........nvm...and yeah its 20.10.2010!! hehehe....i love it..love it so much..the day when i born alive again :)

loves :)

i love you, yeah i love you :) and i guess no more that person im my life..he will only be part of my memories, my sweet and bad memories..now, what i want to do is......to love him and to trust him, cause i think i can feel that he's serious to be with me...loves muffin (L)

will be gone...

:) yeah, i'll be gone from you for few days....cause you make me do that..i'm so sure that you'll be ok with that, yes??:) well, you wouldn't know what i feel..

back to you..

and yes!! at last..it's you that i've choose..and i'm just hoping that everything will go smooth and well..my decision is for you..and for all i've done, i just want you to appreciate me as i've given you another chance..but once you do IT again, letting you go (move away from you) is what i will do..

my dream...

a happy life is what i need for now and later..and what others need and want too..i've made up my decision, and i hope it is a good decision..and i hope it will flow smoothly, cause i can't take any more hurts..may Allah bless my way :)..

the truth ;_;

days by days, and now i realise that the truth are sometimes better left unsaid and unspoken..cause now i can feel it that we are not like how we were, and i realise that you are trying to get away from me, trying to avoid me..but i keep on remind my self that you are not doing such things, cause you had promise that..sometimes, i think you said those things only to comfort me and only to make me feel better..YES!! you did a good job..but somehows, you only make me more sad as you don't fulfill your promise (+_+)

what should i do??

so much things in my mind, so much miserable my heart feels..i got so confuse and i got so hurt..and lately, all i ever wanted to do is to tell you the truth..but, i'm afraid you might avoid me..and i'm afraid i might lost you.. *sigh* how much i want life is so easy..cause feeling like this is so horrible, and i just can't take it any longer..and i need courage to tell you everything, to tell you what i feel (;_;)

your request..

yes i wanted to tell you that i like you..but, it might be too late, cause i guess you are no longer available :') so whats the point if i tell you now??i wont tell you cause i don't want to lose you, even as a friend..now we can just be friend cause you already have someone for your life, even if its so hard for me to accept you as my friend..there is nothing i can do, i'll just keep my secrets to myself -_-

losing hope..

every single minute, every single hour and every single day; nothing left for me..i'm losing my hope..and so sad that i really can't take this..and i can't stand this..there is nothing that can make me avoid thinking of all this stuff, and having an over active brain are not so good..i really need a miracle to make me forget everything T_T

and this is life (-_-)

life is so unfair to me..all i need is a gut to face this hard life..i'm so hopeless that everything seems so hard and difficult to me..i've lost my strength and hope since you said all that things -_- if only there is a skip button in life, life would be not so hard and i wouldn't feel so terrible as what i feel now T_T

welcome back to me :)

hello, i'm back..i got so much story to share, but i prefer to keep it as secrets :)..everything seems so dull to me, and being in love is so much hurting me -_- cause i can't let him know and i can't let it out..its look like that i'm so much in a big trouble of being apart of this..and i don't know what to do and what should i do -.-

sunday 24th january..

good morning!! its sunday!! hmm..whats my plan for today??i guess i'm gonna do something on creative maths later..and korean!! :D..yeah i loves both module..

welcome back!!

hello...its morning meh..and now i'm on my way to UBD..yeah i know its early..waaa...i feel sleepy...and and juicy juicy stomach~ anyway, me and the geng gonna have MIB discussion later,at 10a.m..what i'm gonna do with MIB huh??blurrr...well, will see later...haha..