is it possible...??

if only we could...live our lives without taking a single wrong turn...

but.....

there is no such thing.

sometimes we fail...sometimes we trip....

sometimes we get lost...sometimes we make mistakes....

we just have...to keep going...

...to keep walking one step at a time...on our own two feet.

even if we might get bruised along the way...

we'll all reach our destination someday...a place where someone will be waiting for us....

that i pray for....

feelings

my heart's so confused...it hurts so much..i felt it again...that feeling of leaving something behind...

to have our 'memories' change...

that loneliness and despair...like part of your body's...been torn off...

even if it's an unforgettable event...it doesn't remain vivid in our memories...

no matter how we try to mend it...or how we swear to hold on to it....time will mercilessly pass us by...

it's so sad...that sadness that eats into you...

i can't...i can't stop it...i can't stop it anymore...

my wish........

i just...don't want......

had already become a 'memory'

a wish...

my chest hurts...it hurts so badly...
like it's about to be ripped apart..

is it because this irrational wish....has mad me so afraid??
because i know....that some wishes....may just never come true...??

but even if this is so....i still wish for it!!
i still wish for it!!

one, two, three!!

HAHAHAHA!! lol (????) oh my......am i stress?? huhu..chocolate~ i want you now..come to mama please~ :p heh-heh-heh...

Mr. Kitto Katsu, please give me chocolate...please~ you, you, you can make me hyper :D

hohoho now you are in my mind~ lets fly, fly, fly high!! heyho~

*random-me*

"you and you"

you...i thank you for all that moments, i thank you for making me thinking of my future, i thank you for making me thinking of my life..and for making me to recall my life memories..you, make me clear enough of what i want..you, make me give up of this one thing..and sure it's better that way because......just because~~ yeah i know after all you done, now you gone..yes i shouldn't regret of what happened, but....how can i handle this?? how?? you, you just don't know...well, i guess it just my mistake after all :')

*better life will comes* insyaAllah

my mind just playing a puzzle, and can't complete it..

i don't need you and you either..i don't need a love story..but........deep inside.....i need you..this heart need you, this heart need someone like you...someone that are care enough...someone that can make me happy..i know its you, but....i'm just no one for you :')

stevie hoang - i'm missing you

Hey
Heyyyy mhmmm
Hey hey [x4]

Love is just a crazy game
You never know what it can bring
So if you have someone
Tell em that you love em
Never ever let it end
Cause you don't know what you really got
Until it's just much too late
So cherish every moment that you spend with em
Promise not to let them go...
Cause girl you had my heart
Right from the very start
But still you gotta know

[Chorus:]
Even though I told myself that I moved
Deep down I keep on holding on
It's crazy but true
Girl I'm missing you
And although I'm with somebody else
Girl I can't keep lying to myself
And no matter what I gotta face the truth
She just ain't you
She just ain't you...

It don't matter how hard I try
I just can't get you off my mind
It's driving me crazy
Missing you baby
Thinking bout you all the time
Shes everything a man could want
But you're the one I need
To me it's not worth it
Though she may be perfect
She could never be like you...
Cause girl you had my heart
Right from the very start
But still you gotta know baby...

[Chorus:]
Even though I told myself that I moved
Deep down I keep on holding on
It's crazy but true
Girl I'm missing you
And although I'm with somebody else
Girl I can't keep lying to myself
And no matter what I gotta face the truth
She just ain't you
She just ain't you...

It hurts to move on
Cause your all I ever knew
And I gotta stay strong
So I can't break down and cry
Cry...

[Chorus:]
Even though I told myself that I moved
Deep down I keep on holding on
It's crazy but true
Girl I'm missing you
And although I'm with somebody else
Girl I can't keep lying to myself
And no matter what I gotta face the truth
She just ain't you

No matter what I gotta face the truth...
She just ain't you...

that day and now :)

"i want a relationship" can i shout this loud????? :') am i happy now?? what people expect in relationship anyway??? why i can't move on when actually i found someone better?? what i expect to happen?? am i doing good?? am i not that good?? am i stupid?? well, i got thousands of questions, but not even a single answer can make me awake..awake from this nightmare :')

p/s: stevie hoang's songs accompany my days..

what left for me???

assalamualaikum :) been awhile since my last update, hehe too lazy to type and post here..hmmm there is no much different in my life tho :) i'm still looking for my happiness..and i can say that i'm a bit giving up for him..things are getting complicated..and i can feel that my feeling are faded away ( if i'm not confuse with my own feeling ) or it just because i'm tired to be like this..but i'll go through this, because "Allah sentiasa bersama orang yang sabar"...i've done everything just to make things more clearer, but if its still not enough and everything seems the same may be it just a matter of time...i always pray for my good and my happiness..cause i know Allah knows better than me, He plan everything for good :)

p/s; today, its first ramadhan in brunei..happy fasting for all muslim :)

conscience...

It's better to believe than to doubt a person's kindness..

A conscience isn't something people are born with..People are born with attributes like greed and appetite...survival instincts..

But a conscience is something that grows with you, it grows inside you with time..That's why everyone's 'conscience' is shaped differently.....

Desire is something that's inborn, so nobody doubt that....but kindness is something that's shaped from one's conscience.....so sometimes, people question its sincerity..

But....you must believe....It's human nature to doubt others...And if you grow up to be someone whom others can believe in....you will be able to help others believe, too...