what should i do??

so much things in my mind, so much miserable my heart feels..i got so confuse and i got so hurt..and lately, all i ever wanted to do is to tell you the truth..but, i'm afraid you might avoid me..and i'm afraid i might lost you.. *sigh* how much i want life is so easy..cause feeling like this is so horrible, and i just can't take it any longer..and i need courage to tell you everything, to tell you what i feel (;_;)